I don't care if this entry "goes down on my permanent record." Anyways.. okay.. today.. was fucked up. I don't know, it wasn't all that cool except for when I almost blew up the lab in Chemistry >=) .. Anyways. My girlfriend didn't talk to me at all.. basically.. just a hello/goodbye type of deal. Okay, she wants space.. I understand that. But she could at least tell me in the morning, so I'm not worrying about it the WHOLE day. I don't mean to treat her like a porcelain doll. I just try to be a gentleman. I apologize for it.. if you want me to stop, tell me. Fine, I won't wait/watch you in the morning in front of your classes anymore since you hate it. If you want to talk, you can come find me. I won't go stalking you anymore. Hmm. .what else? The poem should have been self-explanatory. Just open up.. don't close me out.. Please.. I told you what will happen, and we promised eachother we'd tell eachother everything from now on. But so on, the resaon why I "freak out" when you don't talk to me.. is because I hardly get to see you.. and we don't spend all that much time together, because of me being grounded, and us having school. But.. Not just that, at lunch.. we kind of hang out, and you don't talk to me..Why? If you need space, just TELL me. Don't leave me hanging.. =( I don't like that. If you want to go off and chill with your friends, I don't mind at all, you have the right to do that, you're not on a leash. I told you, I just don't get that much time to hang out with you. That's why I'd like to stay with you as much as I can. If you're going to go off, at least tell me.. And if I'm not going to see you for the rest of the lunch period/day.. I'd like a hug at least.. You could do that much.. I don't know what you mean by "You don't always have to be right by me to be with me" but whatever. As for the me the me thinking youre going to hurt yourself.. you just told me that you cut yourself yesterday.. what am I supposed to think? You want space and time to think about stuff? Fine. Will do. When you want to talk, you can come find me, I won't go bothering you. *Nods his head to The Gorrillaz, Clint Eastwood* Mmm hmm.. right. Well, yeah, the rest of the day wasn't all too good. I don't know what else to fuckin' talk about.. so if you guys have any comments.. just write on here.. and I'll check it out later. I just don't want to loose you, Emili.. but fine, you want space, I'll give it to you. Come to me when you're ready or you've figured things out. One love, peace out all.